I’ve been reading the Psalms recently in the morning, and today I was struck by a line in Psalm 15:
O Lord, who shall sojourn in your tent? Who shall dwell on your holy hill? He who . . . speaks truth in his heart.”
Jeremy graciously sat and listened to me talk through some feelings and questions last night, and a lot of those thoughts and ponderings had been inspired by reading this post yesterday. Now, this post is relation to marriage, but I was challenged to accept affirmation given from my husband. It’s easy to ignore or brush off positive comments Jeremy makes to me, and dwell long and hard on negative thoughts that I create in my own mind that I believe others are thinking about me.
When I read this verse this morning, that all came back. What God wants in a child is someone who is willing to tell herself the truth. I realized how easily I avoid this, and not just when Jeremy tells me I’m doing okay, or I look nice.
Sometimes, I fail to tell myself the truths I so desperately need. The Gospel saves, the Gospel redeems, the Gospel is powerful, the Gospel CAN change her heart, the Gospel frees me from bondage to sin.
Sometimes, I fail to tell myself the truths about myself: You are being lazy, laziness is a sin. You are being proud, pride angers God and leads to fall. You are being jealous, you do not have the authority to be jealous.
Sometimes, I tell myself untruths: It’s okay that you slept late again, you’re pregnant. Spending that money isn’t irresponsible, it’s a good investment. You probably won’t succeed with that dream, you’re not enough. That person probably thinks I’m weird, I don’t really need them anyway.
How much of my day, I wonder, is filled with me speaking untruths or overlooking real truth in my heart. And how foolish, when the Gospel has freed me to live in the glorious truth of God’s story! And what is God looking for? He is looking for a daughter who is willing to speak truth into her heart, even when that isn’t what she wants to hear or believe.
The following Psalm, Psalm 16, has a few statements of truth that I believe are a very good place to start in practicing speaking truth into your heart:
I say to the Lord, ‘You are my Lord: I have no good apart from you.’
The sorrows of those who run after another god [money, dreams, things] shall multiply.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance [without needing the next phone, a house, a baby, etc.].
I have set the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
What truths will you speak into your heart today?